My guardian angel

          I lay in my bed, in my dark room. With only a small almost sparkling sliver of moonlight. Coming in from the mostly covered by a curtain window. I still was mostly asleep dreaming. In the dream , I am walking on stars across the sky. All around me there is shining sparkling silver stars. There is also the black sky the surrounds them. It is a truly magical place. I suddenly stop walking when I hear a low, soft, charming, mysterious , male voice. Coming from somewhere in the sky , I walk across. I look all around me trying to find a face to match the voice. The more I search for the voice . The more the voice doesn’t sound like in a dream. It sounds like he is really there and waking me up.
               I open my eyes waking up from the dream. The voice stops, and I sit up and rub my eyes. I look around wishing that dream was real. But I realized that , it had just been a dream. I then lay down and I decided to try to go back to bed. But then I heard his voice again. I sat up as quick as lightning. I looked around frantically like a scared but curious rabbit . I kept looking around my bedroom, but all I could see was darkness. All I heard was his voice humming a strange toon. I had never heard before. It was a soothing, enchanting, soft, caring, lovely, kind toon. 
              Then he spoke from right behind me . But I still couldn’t see him. But his breath trickled down my back. Almost like water , his breath made my back feel all tingly.  He then whispered softly in my ear. “ Hey Mia, I have wondered around throughout your life. In your mind, right beside you, watching from several feet away, all of your life. I have been there for you every step of the way so far. Even though you didn’t know it. I have been a voice in your head who helped you make choices. But you always thought it was just your conscious. I have always been there. I have always wanted to actually be able to meet you meet you. Not just be around you and in your mind without you knowing.”
           I looked around me frantically looking for this boy. Who was talking to me but was nowhere to be seen. At that point my heart was racing and I was panicky. I took a long deep breath and tried to sound calm. Then said “ who are you? Where are you? Also there is no way you would have been there my whole life!?!?!”. The boy's voice laughed a bit sounding like he was excited. And that he was enjoying this conversation and slight amusement. He then said calmly with a slow, soft, soothing voice. That almost sounded a bit musical or maybe theatrical . “ My name is James. Also of course you can’t see me! The only way you could is if I let you.”
          “ Also yeah there is a way for me to have been there for your whole life. I’m your guardian angel. Not like the whole Jesus loving religious guardian angel. A different kind. I remember when you were six years old and ate kettle corn for the first time. You were so happy , you ran around yelling. “ I LOVE KETTLE CORN!!!!!”. Over and over and over. Till your mom calmed you down and gave you a juice box. I also remember that time that you and your friend Olive took pregnancy tests. Because you both had hugged boys and thought that was how you made kids. That was when you were eleven I think.”
            “ I also remember you when you were fourteen. You were at the spring dance and a guy tried to talk to you. You were so excited you turned as red as a tomato and said “ you're soooo hot!!!!!!”. He then walked off creeped out.” I sat there on my bed gaping. There was no way he could have known all of that. Unless he had actually been there like he said he was. I sighed nervously starting to bit by bit believe what he was claiming. I then said trying my hardest to sound calm. Even though my voice was trembling. I asked “ will you please show yourself?....”. I felt his breath go away from my back. I then could hear his footsteps walking towards the window. He then suddenly appeared out of nowhere. I could actually see him. He was tall , skinny, had gorgeous deep brown eyes, the absolute darkest creamy brown. You could clearly see that he was muscular . He was wearing a black t-shirt and dark grey jeans. 
             He had this three inch scar on his left cheek. Oh and not to mention his wings. They were huge when he spread them out. He couldn’t even unfold them fully. They were jet black with some blood ruby red almost black feathers here and there. He over all was super hot!!!! I couldn’t help but stare at him. He grinned and laughed then said  “ it’s so nice to finally really meet you!!!”. I nodded nervously then asked “ so why do you show yourself now?”. He sighed looking down at the ground for a second . Then looked back at me and said “ well the elders finally let me graduate . Meaning that for all of your life. I have been your guardian angel. But I had no wings and I was never to really interact with you.”
            “ But now they finally let me graduate. So my wings grew in and now I am finally allowed to meet you. I now can hangout with you. I basically get to do whatever I feel like doing now!”. I nodded starting to accept all of this as real. I looked at him then asked “ so um were you all of my imaginary friends and boyfriends?....”. He laughed blushing then said sounding a bit shy . “  Yeah.. that was me…”. We both were silent for a minute or so . James then sighed looking down at his hands the back at me. He looked like he was trying to decide to say something or not. So I asked curiously “ what is it?”. He smiled a bit then said shyly “ do you remember when you were fifteen. You were going through a lot. You had barely any friends. Your dad had just passed away. And you had this imaginary boyfriend that got you through everything. He always seemed real to you… But he was only in your mind. But if he kissed or hugged you. You could feel that but you still couldn’t see him.”
            “ Your mom just said it was your imagination. After a while you believed her . Remember how for months after you missed him. Even though you thought he wasn’t real. You desperately wanted him to be there again. You have ever since for the past two years have be in love with him.” I sat there with my mouth almost hitting the floor. Was it possible that James could have been the “imaginary” boyfriend Adam. That I had two years ago and have been in love with ever since. I looked at James and my heart was beating very fast with excitement. I then asked excitedly “ Were you Adam?!!”. James nodded smiling and blushing. He then said with his voice trembling a bit “ yeah I was Adam. I wasn’t allowed to let you know my real name then.”
               I couldn’t believe that he was really here right now. I have loved him so much for the past two years. Even though I knew he wasn’t even real. All I have wanted the past two years was for him to be real. And for me to actually see him. I have missed him so much. James grinned then walked over to me and sat next to me on my bed. We were both blushing like crazy. He then took his hand and gently moved a strand of my hair out of the way. He then put his hand around my waist and pulled me close to him. He leaned in and kissed me. It felt like nothing else was happening. Nothing else mattered it was just me and him. His lips against mine felt so familiar. A kiss from once upon a dream. I felt as if my heart and soul had just been made complete once again. After what had seemed like forever we parted. He looked into my eyes and I looked into his. I knew I was where I was meant to be at this moment in time. 
         We were both smiling and then I hugged him tightly. I was so happy that he had finally returned to me. I sighed happily and said “ thank you so much for finding your way back to me James!!!!!”. He hugged me tighter and said “ I would travel farther than the farther distance. Through wild strom’s, and roaring fires and oceans. Through universes if it meant I got back to you. I am here now and I will never leave”. We then sat back onto my bed and snuggled under the covers and fell asleep. In that moment I was truly happy.
             The next morning I woke up and looked around and James was nowhere to be seen, heard, or felt. I called his name out several times . But without an answer. Had last night been real or had it just been a dream…...

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