My Opinion

poem by: Misti D Lovelace
Written on Nov 17, 2018

I've always known it wasn't me.
I wasn't making things up and I absolutely didn't want pity.
I just needed an adult to see
It was a serious matter.
I didn't like throwing fits,
I knew how stupid it made me look.
I didn't like being me,
Everything about life hurt.
I saw no reason to be around anymore.
Another day, another night mare.
Another game of charades where I pretend I am perfectly ok.
All because I am afraid that if I don't everyone I love will eventually walk away.
Sometimes stuff gets to me and I get so mad and scream then sad and cry then nothing but numb now back to the same.
Now I am the bad guy, I am completely to blame.
Never blame all the darkness, confusion, and pain.
I am supposed to be okay; hold it all together.
So everyone else's life will be better.
I try to, I swear I really do!
But my mind has a different opinion on the matter!

 

Tags: Sad, Rhyme, Depressing, Confused, Encouraging, Pain, Hope, Dark, Deep,

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Frank Hornby . commented on Nov 17, 2018 at 8:35am
It makes me sad to read of your plight.....but the fact that you deliver it in poetry...will only inspire, and encourage fellow sufferers....you are so brave Misti.....and talented....
Misti D Lovelace commented on Nov 18, 2018 at 12:51am
Thanks Frank, I'm actually not sad about any of it, it made me stronger. Thanks, glad you like my poetry!
Christopher Russon commented on Dec 25, 2018 at 10:06am
Although your pľght saddens me. It is good to exspress it in poetry.

 

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