I'm placid as a lake but stormy underneath the lightning tearing down under my cool face as I remain calm outwardly I feel fear and have jitters I'm a closed door that I don't want to open afraid people will see that I won't go out I can't - that is I'm trapped in my conflict I will let it go and move on and on My depression and anxiety will adjust as I move - fly right through it Time is precious I'm wasting so much I will open a new chapter and life will offer me new experiences both positive and pure A new hope - my life full of good things No longer shut in the dark closet of doom I will walk out and grow one instant at a time