"Mike, Billy, and my youngest brother Paul... It's been many, many years...now sadly I don't know you three at all.. With my fading memories of growing up...as us four young Kirkby lads.. ..and eventually I did find out...that we had different dads.. with our caring secretive mother...who never revealed her past.. Our mum probably suffered with her shame...to the very, very last.. We were a disfunctional family...with an unloving, selfish "dad." and I was your oldest brother...a confused, and angry young lad.. after being told at just 14...that us brothers weren't "full blood.. I felt different...out on my own..and it never ever felt good.. I pulled my mind inwards...kept my thoughts locked deeply inside... became sort of a loner...didn't emotionally need anyone...never even tried.. I often think fondly of you all...and hope that you've really done well... ..lived a full, healthy, and happy life...so goodbye..and sadly, farewell."