"There's no end to the flashbacks to when I was a small lad... ..can't seem to get it out of my head, that I didn't have a dad... the anger's there still with me...hidden deep inside.. ..can't seem to shake it off....I've tried...oh god, I've tried. My short time spent in that orphanage...left me in a state.. ..no love felt from a step father...that's when I learned to hate... A mother living in despair...her young life deprived of hope... with fours sons under the age of ten...how did she manage to cope? ...a sadness overwhelms me..when I think of her miserable plight.. her body consumed with cancer...an illness she couldn't fight.. Why do these thoughts torment me?...so often make me weep... ...will I take them to the grave?...to haunt my eternal sleep."