Talking to myself while verbally beating myself up! et
Talking to myself, the majority of my life is one thing. Verbally beating myself up is entirely a horse of a different color, purple. I will stop beating myself up, when pigs fly! An animated pig answered the question for me. When during an insurance commerical. I think it was Geico? Was an actual passenger on an commerical airline plane. We never did find out where he boarded the plane, or where he landed!
Many people call themselves: blind, or deaf, or dumb. They falsely accuse themselves of snake bite. "If it would have been a snake it would have bite me! Unless they live in a part of world, where snake bites are common--they probably have never been bitten by a snake in their lives!
What about talking out loud in super markets? I must admit most people avoid that habit unless they are lost. Also espesially if the store, or location is new to them. Thank God for customer service! Unless their line is too long, and the shoppers are in a hurry!
I used to hear a lot,"you will always be sick, and you never will be well, unless you forgive your father."
Many decades latter, my family and friends, know I haven't by a long shot! The bitterness remains present after all these decades! My father died when he was still in his 60's. My family believed he died before collecting his Social Security. The Social Security office called my mother and notified her, When we were still living in Northwest Everett, Washington. The regions of Everett are mainly geographical. I don't think most people even bother to mention them.
When my mother died I called them, they informed me, "My father's social security would be returned to the social secutiy trust fund." They also told me, I would not be collecting it. I told them I was already on SSI, and I would not need it." It is not the entire conversation, just the most important parts.
"People like you never get any better, they only get worse. You might as well accept it!" "Well it turned out not to be true after all. When my deceased brother Brian, told me,"Roxanne you will always be fat!
You will never lose weight! Why not just accept it and be happy! And give the rest of us some peace!"
I have joined a weight lose group. I am secretary because no one else wants the job! My weight was going up and down again. Because of medication, and water retention, I have been gaining water weight!
Whenever we attach lables to people, do we not categorize them? Sometimes it is necessary. Only certain people can qualify for DSHS, SSI, and SSDI etc. People are seeking to divide this country race! People are seeking to divide our country by sex! People are seeking to divide this country by income and social status!
People are trying to divide our country by polictical parties! Poltical parties are necessary to help goven this country. Your state is either: Blue and Democratic or Red and Republican. Let us try to remember: we are all American citizens!
People are seeking to divide this country based upon relgion. I call myself, a Christian. Jews and Muslims are people of the book . We adhere to either the: Bible, the Torah, or the Quran. Relgious hatred is destroying nations, and creating international refugees problem.
Genocide and massiive shootings in Orlando Florida. And the list goes on and on continuly. This relgious warfare, many believe, has aready started WW111! Should Muslims be targeted and confinded! Should the Jews not be entitled to a home land? Should not Christians be granted freedom of religious beliefs. Are we also not entitled to pray! Should our prayers be confined to: home and church alone! Are public school, and college students, and military be denied relgious freedom!
Love in Christ Jesus!
Roxanne Lea Dubarry
aka Roxy54/ October Country
June 26, 2016
