Sitting alone in the dark Staring at the same spots Lost in these thoughts Hoping to feel a spark Remembering all the pain Letting it take over Dragging me even lower How can i maintain? I think about the kids Their smiles, laughs, love. Shouldn't that raise me above? Make me want to live? They are that string Thats holding me here It snapping is my fear And those thoughts sting I'm not giving up I hate feeling like this Why can't I have bliss? My mind is just corrupt.