My Crazy Way of Coping

poem by: Kristen Gunn
Written on Apr 26, 2020

All the pitiful actions I've taken 
To simply keep my head afloat 
Have left me in this state of insanity 
That very few truly know 

Sometimes I try to console myself 
To say that I handled things with grace
But it's a feeble attempt to exonerate myself 
An effort to curb my distaste

It's a fact we all have our demons 
Though some wouldn't like to admit 
But when the fiends 
Are now your friends 
You start to lose your mind a bit 

People don't like messy
You must conform and blend in 
And play their silly game of belittlement
The catch is, you can never win

And sometimes the past can't be the past
Because the past hangs on too tight
It's ingrained in you
It's who you are
And some things can't be made 'right'

When the only thing that comforts you
Is the very thing that brings you shame 
Then the only thing you can do is wonder
Why you continue to take part 
In this prejudiced, fruitless game

 

Tags: Deep, Wishful, Dark, Pain, Sad,

 

 

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