All of the months, the hours the days The loneliness at times gets lost in the haze Thanks to some distractions feeling I have a life Keeping busy in some way protects me from my plight Damage control is all that it is Fooling myself to believe I can live It's the way that I've found I need to survive I'm not really living but it keeps me alive I've given up hope that much more can change All will stay as it is nothing more to arrange Stuck in this rut constructed for me For the rest of my life I can never be free The revelation of the plot, the one that transpired The fool from within me had never realised Now it's to late, my life somewhat destroyed The manipulation of me was so well deployed The idea you live and you learn is wasted on me Reliving my mistakes always will be The life that I've lived seems somewhat a waste Shattered dreams and beliefs all ended in haste How can someone who you gave all your trust Betray and deceive, wipe you away like your dust How can this be answered in a way that makes sense All comprehension of a criminal mind is complex No explanation can be reached in my mind No answers at all am I able to find The thinking it haunts me day after day The only thought I have left, she was just born that way