I lay awake almost every night Staring at the ceiling Waiting for some sleep to come To take away my feelings Wishing I will never wake No more pain as my companion One day I know it will be relieved When my life comes to its conclusion Happy times so long ago I have no recollection All that I seem to recall Constant lies and all deception How did this all become of me? Was it through making wrong decisions? Or was it all just meant to be? No matter my intentions What's done is done cannot be changed Can only try to hide it But now and then I'm overwhelmed Then I cry and cry for hours