Searching

poem by: Paul Stephens
Written on Apr 16, 2017

Looking for answers won't cut it
Analysing all of the facts 
Trying to find rhyme or reason
That can't be where it's all at

I cope in the best way I can do
Trying to suppress the things that I feel
Keep to myself if I need to
Emotionally unfit to fight on for real

I know that I just couldn't bare it
Would tear me completely apart
Letting go is all that I can do now
The status quo is the best I can hope

Searching my soul has been fruitless
Blaming myself for some time
In the end it would not of mattered
Was doomed from when I first made her mine

It's history now and I can't change it
Banished to the corners of my mind
All I can do is disguise it
Hoping its cured in time

I know myself more than anyone
I know when I'm out on my feet
I can't do anymore than I have been
It stops where it is as complete 

 

Tags: sad, rhyme, deep, pain,

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James Farley commented on Mar 25, 2018 at 3:48pm
The pain. Hope you’re better now.

 

 

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