Hear we go again

Hear we go again .Nasty words that never end .
The things you said are haunting my head 
Yet you expect me to sit in the company of someone who can be so crule ... this isent love .
How can i sit there with fake responces ..knowing what you really think of me ..knowing your being fake knowing that at any giving moment ..youl turn to hate .
Why have the gods forsaken me .. when all my life iv been forse to see.
Forse to see that the only kind of love is real ...is the time your children choose your heart to steel ..
You have broke me .. more often then not destroyed me i wish i forgot.
But the pain still lurks heavy on my heart fears youl crumble what love iv got.
One day i wish i wish to be free . Free from hurt free from crule nasty shit that haunts me.
My life was destent to suck this way .
I try to stop it in everyway ..
I let my self down loving you ... my heart was blind and i think you knew .
You dont love me its clear to see ..u love the idear of family and with that you have to put up with me.
I am not the stone that lurks in your shoe or that piece of beef thats stuck in you teeth ... im not that boil that needs to be lanced ..i am a woman and i deserve a chance ..the woman you promissed to love but deep down its not me you want .. you want a house and kids to shut out ..
I am slowly dieing inside .. but its ok il sit up in this room and hide ...
Cause hear we go again !!

Tags: sad, anger, depressing, confused, fear,