Job Search Depression

poem by: Snow Nakajima
Written on Nov 18, 2016

My hands, sore from typing and writing
Job applications and a mountain of it
Taking countless hours and time
Tick tock, tick tock
I’m working away like Cinderella
Stress, anxiety, excitement
 All at the same time
“Will this finally happen for me?”
Eggs in one basket kind of situation
“Oh no, what did I get myself into?”
Countless times I do this to myself
Rinse and Repeat
Rinse and Repeat
Rinse and Repeat

Job interview time
Choking the life out of me
I’m hanging off the cliff
My body is getting weak
Arms are giving in
Easy to just let go
Hard to keep at it
Questioning my decision 
“Is this what I really want?”
“Am I too far fetch?”

The black hole 
Deeper and wider
Swallowing me alive
I try to resist but it’s taking over
I kick and punch the air
Worthless effort
My sorrow eating me alive
I look to God
Only one that can save me
I cry and ask for help
“God, I’m tired!”
I let go
Let go of everything
I’m covering my head 
The storm is taking over
I see no more light
Just darkness and black
All black 
Credits finish  
End of movie
Black screen
The End

 

Tags: sad, depressing, confused, pain, dark,

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Christian Correa commented:
A nightmare I can relate to.
Christopher Russon commented:
So true to life.I can relate.lovely poem.
Josh Rogan commented:
Been there, done that, got the (second-hand) T Shirt. Not sure if direct from your own experiences, or if it's sympathy for others, but well done, you've captured the hopelessness very well. Well done.
ann parks commented:
not just me then .......well done!
Melancholy Molly commented:
Very nice write
Chris Cleverly commented:
Great poem, I can feel the anxiety and depression build as the poem continues, Hard to capture that in words but youve done it. thankyou for posting
Krista Heffernan commented:
i really enjoyed how the poem seemed to get darker as it went on, very relatable as well. I could feel my anxiety regarding job hunting while i was reading this!!
Rakel duca commented:
Wow , very heavy thoughts of work applications. Good
Q. Ramirez commented:
Good poem. I have my own work related frustrations that I will post.
suzie lemons commented:
Theatrical :)
Mishley Nim commented:
Great choice of sentence structure: short and succinct. This builds up the tension by quickening the reading pace.
Muk - commented:
Dealing with this nightmare myself
Michael Wise commented:
You described very well a situation that I, and many others, can so easily relate to, sadly. Very visual feast in your words.
dan miltz commented:
Nice work...Very good write!
Edward shields commented:
Leave your job!!
Roxanne Dubarry commented:
You need to let go and let God lead you to the perfect job which is perfect for you! Your poem inspires others facing similar circumstances! I really loved your poem. My job seeking years have ended. I never found the perfect job. I am on SSI and enjoy poetry and creative writing.

 

 

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