Has a lifetime gone by? Surely it has I met you when I was barely a man! It was your smile...... It was the kindness in your eyes..... It was your courage,shown in my behalf..... It was the first time that I really felt love. Although your efforts were genuine,how where you to know what I was. A soul so damaged that I could not respond to the offer of your heart. I tried to speak but powerful bonds held my voice..... I wanted to show you,but I was paralyzed emotionally. You........were gone in an instant........ A pain set in like I'd never felt before. One that faintly remains even today. Held in that moment of my early life,I remain there,as if a part of me has not been able to leave. Until I grew enough that I could reach out and give back even just a little,to someone who meant so much. So I say to you...... I am so sorry....... my first love,my dearest memory.