' LONELY FEELINGS' Sitting in a room surrounded by many people Be it at work or a wedding under a church steeple The feeling of loneliness is never far away I get a sinking feeling , it's how I'm meant to stay Feeling detached from what life should be about Why do I feel this way ?, I often want to shout It's a meaningless life when you feel empty inside Almost like you've paid the fare but never took the ride I look at all the happy faces ,smiling all around And I often find myself start smiling , then staring at the ground The smile is then replaced with a watering in my eyes It's like I want to open up but afraid to really cry I guess I'm pretty shy ,not always been that way Life events have conformed , making me feel like this today How do you find the courage within to seek the change you need When the general consensus is "it's all just in your heed" I wish I could see the good in me , which others say they see The smile , the kindness , the man I used to be One day in the future perhaps it shall return And give me back the spark inside for all to see it burn Right now I fight these demons inside me every day Hour by hour getting by , that seems to be the way Always looking from within to find a way of healing I am Steven and these are my lonely feelings . Steven Godfrey