To Danny

I know a place,a place so dark.....so cold.....so deep. 
A place that drains me,until my soul is emaciated. 
It sours my heart,pressing bitterness into me,I feel it's jagged twist.
I don't know how I get there,it is insidious in its envelopment,sudden in its arrival. 
Suffocating.......my breathing becomes shallow......my chest hurts. 
The scars it has left are transparent!
A silent agony,whispering behind my consciousness......as if the blackest of storms where somehow hidden behind wispy,gentle clouds.
My victories are momentary and fleeting.....
as if they never where. 
Sadly few know of what I speak.
I have tried to bring others in,but even the most genuine simply hold to compassion,as understanding eludes their grasp.
Behind the eyes of a few,there is the belief that what "they" cannot understand,must not be real. 
While still others decide for themselves what is "really" wrong. And I watch them silently,while they wear their misguided piety like a garment. 
Their ignorance gives this dark place a pulse.....giving it substance.......it has become a living enemy. 
I am cornered as it taunts its declaration......."that there is no one who knows what it's doing to me"!
I often do not know what to believe,while like a shadow cast beside me,my steps are shackled to its will. 
......it is close.......
......it is just behind me......
But alas I am not its only prey,for it killed my friend today.
I knew him only from a distance on this barren and wretched battle field........this dwelling for rotting souls with cold hearts....damp.....and musty.
He died alone,cornered and bullied by a relentless foe,until death became his relief. 
A lonely end in a lonely fight.
Although he was in my sight,I could not reach him,just as he could not reach me.
                            He will be missed.........
                            He is at peace.........😔

Tags: sad, pain, dark,