A phase

poem by: Anonymous Poet98
Written on Oct 22, 2017

I'm not right
I need to fix myself 
But I cannot do that,No
Not without medical help.
So here i lay on my bed
Staring at the ceiling 
For no fucking reason,
Oh maybe I'm just sad 
But I don't know that yet.
They say it's just a phase, 
But I keep playing sceneries on my head
Of the time that never exited.
Is it sign the of happiness or sadness? 
Damn, maybe I'm sick 
Cause I'm losing my weight .
But no one believes me.
Why is it so hard to get ?
Maybe I need to do something big
I think to myself 
Do I cut my throat ?
Or my hand ? 
But I saw a girl cut herself to death 
And no one cared.
Hush! Don't do it, it's stupid 
I tell myself. 
Yes, yes I'm mentally ill
But who do I tell ?

 

Tags: Sad, Depressing, Confused, Scary, Pain, Dark, Imagery, Weird, Deep,

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Frank Hornby . commented on Oct 23, 2017 at 12:12pm
Sad state to be in ......go straight to your doctor...immediately!.....please...
Taha Hassan commented on Oct 24, 2017 at 11:00am
Similar condition here. Sadly, I don't think a doctor is the solution for this? One caring friend is all we need. But then again, who will think we're worth it ...? worth the time, the effort, the pain?

 

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