You know I come from a family that is just insanely different in my family, you don’t talk about your feelings or even acknowledge them if someone wrongs you, you just forget them and cut them out of your life if someone wrongs you, you smoke some weed and move on with your life. they are always pretending wearing their little mask of fake happiness while deep inside they are crying and slowly dying but to them that’s all ok! my mother says it’s been 20 years son, it’s time to move on like it’s so easy to do. like you can just stop having emotions and feelings every day. in my family, we are told to forgive and forget pretend it never happened but I can’t do that I can not forgive the things you did to me because I relive them every single night I can not forget the things you did to me because I can still hear my brother crying out in pain as you beat him in his room I can not forgive the things you did to me because at 13 I was diagnosed with chronic depression and PTSD and every single day I would come home and go to my room and sit there by myself, staring at a screen wishing I had a different life. I can not forget he things you did to me because by 14 I had attempted 4 times I can not forgive the things you did to me because you act like mental illness isn’t real I can not forget these things you did to me because I still wear the scars I can not forgive the things you did to me because you made a 11-year-old boy want to die I can not forget the things you did to me because you destroyed my family I can not forgive the things you did to me even to this day it’s still all too real I can not forget the things you did to me because every day I look in the mirror and see you and want to die I can not forgive the things you did to me because when I came home crying you told me to just get tough I can not forget the things you did to me because the jokes you said about childhood me weren’t really jokes I can not forget the things you did to me because of you destroying my safe space I can not forgive the things you did to me because they are happening to this day I can not forget these things because when I came to you for help and safety you just made it worse I can not forgive these things Because you allowed me to lock myself in I can not forget these things Because you made me seek love and acceptation else where I can not forgive these things Because I got sexually assaulted and you made it out that I was just being weird I can not forget these things Because when I told you who I really am you locked me in a padded room I can not forgive these things because I haven’t FUCKING forgot I will not forget these things you did to me because they have taught me who I am I will not forgive these things you did to me because even after 20 years I am scared of you I can not forgive these things you did to me because of them I will be a better man Maybe one day I will heal, but I will never forget or forgive these things