They tell me I'm different.. loosing your love.

They tell me I'm different since you left. 
Since you were taken. 
You were taken away from me in one split moment. 
You would never leave by choice.
You were ripped away. 

You were my guardian.
My true life knight.
You were such a grand, unexpected, beautiful love. 
You were a perfect person if ever there was another to walk on this earth. 
You were so many things to everybody but to me you were everything. 

My heart, it still hurts the spot that was ripped out the night you left. 
Seeing you there but knowing you were gone from me. 
Feeling helpless knowing I had failed on the promise we made. 
Screaming at God and sobbing into the chest of friends, all broken by the same, none knowing the love we coveted. 

They suggest I find new love. 
The suggest I flirt with the release I once craved. 

They tell me my smile is dim.
They tell me my eyes have lost a piece of their sparkle. 
They say I'm not myself, they ask if I'm okay. 
They can't understand that a piece of me was ripped away.
That I'm left with a bleeding and battered soul. 

I don't know if I'll ever be the same, the same as I was when you loved me. But I know that you have changed me for the better. 
Your advice, your guidance, your wisdom, your love and understanding. 
You calmed my fears, you soothed my doubt, you comforted me in sorrow. 

So now I go to live a life forever missing you, yet forever imprinted by you. 
Your name stitched across my soul to hold it together. 
I live in your honor. 
I deal with life as you would have me. 
I walk these streets with love and strength. 
You have changed me with your love, you have shattered me with your loss but your legacy gives me strength. 

 

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