alternate title: debut of Amelie Beth Harris First borne progeny to the late Harriet and current octogenarian widower Boyce Harris her birth delivered more than the sum total of a healthy baby girl, she gurgled with contentment asper the center of attention for thirteen plus months until thee debut of this author, whose birth (mine) automatically designated said offspring as “big†sister, who would instinctively evince the role of pseudo mother, when this extremely bashful boy bore being bruited by bullies, whence she served as protector and barrier reef to cushion thyself, who suffered extreme vulnerability when thrown figurative sucker punch (and at times threatened with getting hammered to a pulp) by brutes who found me a convenient target. The disadvantage standing l ike a whisper in the wind exhibiting extreme intro- verted ness (only recently strongly linkedin to bio chemical disparity), and to top off avalanche of denigrating assault this wordsmith subject to the unfair incursions of all manner of venal, verbal and veracious vocalizations, I spoke with a severe nasal arising from congenital defect (during the onset of prepubescence) identified as a submucous cleft palate, which essentially constituted a split uvula whereby two halves of what ought to be a singular elongated fraction of an inch tear drop shaped tissue played havoc, when every now and again spontaneous bursts of utterances took place pronounced nasality a capstone in tandem to afore mentioned characteristics. This current voluntarily solitary older papa reflects how mix of genetic primary colors red deuced his fighting spirit reduced him to yell low wing silent blue in the face of madness made retorts, which constant besieging deplorable fiendish hate jabbering tinder fueling internal discord, and exacerbating a pre dilection toward rapier renting social withdrawal, temptation toward self starvation easily provoked when self esteem, confidence and acceptance of self already at an all time low setting the stage for psychic fracture, and tis only of late that salient strengths plus health of body, mind and spirit prized, relished and valued sprung immeasurable from love eldest sibling, whose needling when mine existence akin to a bridge over troubled water, now with 20/20 hindsight recognizes such misinterpretations as bothersome frequent meddling merely attempted to express care and concern toward this sole brother, whose behavior when figuratively dangling from tender hooks bore witness to maturation of deux darling daughters clearly understood while slogging thru the trials and tribulations of fatherhood brought revelations sans how pained mother, father and sister felt, when helplessness found Matthew Scott Harris to writhe in despair preferring short cut viz demise via anorexia nervosa than experiencing plethora of positive opportunities to foster childhoods’ end, and segway into vibrant young adult, which remembrance or things past dredges up Proust chin wince of sadness at forsaking manifold glee instead reacting by hermetically sealing thyself more exhausting than if early life lived with active anchors re: esprit de corps, thus now each day holds value even if occupied with routine matters, where self actualization finds me striving to deliver measure of selflessness and payback to worthy persons who played a pivotal role aiding importance of this perceptive person.