I still remember.. Remember everyday that I waited for you to wake up.. All those times I woke up and wish it didn't happen.. All those nights I went to bed crying.. And more night of tears yet to come.. Hoping that it was all a dream.. But its not.. Its the truth that I have to face everyday.. It breaks my heart every time I think bout it.. Why.. Why did you leave me.. Why didn't you at least give me time.. If I've known I would have told you I loved you more.. I would have been around more.. I would have called.. Show you how much I truly loved you.. But now its to late.. I lay in bed.. Tears filling my eyes.. Thinking.. Just thinking to the point that my heart hurts so much and I can't take it no more.. I still can't believe it.. I don't wanna believe it.. But the image of you just laying there.. So pale and breathless.. Is implanted into my head.. And I can't get it out.. I just can't.. It hurts.. I wish you where here to tell me its alright.. That it didn't happen.. That I just woke up from a nightmare.. And you where here.. But I know its not gonna happen.. That I can't see you no more.. That I can't talk to you no more.. That I can't feel your welcoming hugs no more.. I miss you so much.. Pleaseeee I'm sorry.. For not telling you all this before it happened.. I love you.. I hope your happy where you are.. And that you hear how much I love you.. I hope one day this pain stops.. But it won't because you'll always be in my heart...